Another rejection letter came today... this was #3. I'm going to go with the whole blessing in disguise argument. Quit with the eye rolling, I enjoy living in denial.
My mood has improved slightly over the weekend... Only 20 days until graduation :)
I've officially HALVED myself by dropping from a size 16 to a size 8. Funny thing is, I don't really see anything different when I look in the mirror. I have to look at the tags of the new clothes I just bought to remind me how far I've come. Now 3 weeks until graduation and the goal is to hit 140 by then...9 pounds to go.
My heart is still feeling broken. I guess it just needs more time... I think it also needs me to figure out how to let go of all of the self loathing and love myself. Feeling full can't come from someone else... but it sure feels a hell of a lot emptier without them.
If anyone knows what the hell I'm supposed to do now... I'm all ears.
Hi! Thanks for the comment on my Forgotten Old Photos blog..yes I have lived in Minnesota almost all my life!
ReplyDeleteIt is nice to meet you..but it sounds like you are going through a tough time.
Some men are just insensitive jerks..there are many more fish in the sea so to speak..obviously he was not right for you.
I suppose you must go through an appropriate amount of mourning for a relationship that crumbled..what do I know..of love and life..I am only 35 years older than you.
Twenty five..you have the whole world at your feet..be good to yourself first..because you are the most important!
I hope you get a job offer soon..I will be back to check on you! :)